Should I Stay or Should I Go?

I often find myself pondering what Heaven will be like when we get there and this always leads to a yearning to go Home. To have no troubles, pain, suffering, hardships. To be with our King for Eternity. Every time I find myself in this situation I am drawn back to Philippines where Paul writes: "To live is Christ to Die is gain." But last night as I was reading through, God brought to my mind the verses that follow 1:21. In these verses Paul talks about how he is torn between the two. He longs to leave this earth and be with his Heavenly Father, but realizes that at this present time it is more necessary to be on earth, serving.

This for me does two things:
1. It allows me to see myself on the same level as Paul. A great example I once heard is that if being in the will of God is like the ocean, we play along the beach, barely allowing ourself to get wet, while Paul is standing out in the middle allowing the waves to wash over him. But when I see that some of the same desires that I possess on a daily basis were also possessed by Paul, it lifts my spirits to push onward towards that goal.
2. Paul ends this section by saying that He feels that it is better for him to stay, and as it says in 26: "so that in me you may have ample cause to glory in Christ Jesus, because of my coming to you again." By staying here people will see Jesus in me, in us. Who knows who might see you today and see Jesus. You have a purpose. Allow others to see Jesus in you.

Father,
That is my prayer today. Move me aside. Shine through my life. Let everything I do be for you. Let me be mindful that the actions I take reflect upon you. I am nothing without you. My life is nothing without you. Lead people into your loving arms through my life Father.

"to be named at a later date"

Sorry for the blog silence of recent days/weeks but I've been without Internet access for awhile, and I didn't really feel like driving all the way to my parents house to steal some. Not much of anything going on these days, but here is a short list to keep my one reader happy.

• Spent a week on the lake hanging out with the family. We had a blast, caught absolutely no fish to speak of, learned my mom is a crazy jet ski driver, and caught a lot of sun.
• I interviewed at TexasBank after I got back and hopefully have a job there come August, but nothing is for certain. I'm in need of some major funds seeing as I'm totally broke.
• Seeing that I'm not working, I have a ton of free time and well it's been pretty boring lately. The apartment is set up and I don't really have much to do these days.
• Got to spend part of a day with my wonderful and beautiful girlfriend last Sunday evening. We met up, had dinner and caught a showing of The Dark Night. I really am missing her and any chance I get to see her is really awesome. I look forward to the next time we get to see each other.
• Sometime in all this I followed some of my close friends and jump on the Twitter bandwagon. I am now, as I was warned, addicted to it. You can see what I am up to here.

That's pretty much what I've been up to the last few weeks. I promise to update a little more frequently now that I can access the Internet more easily.

The Facts...Plain and Simple

Well it's been a busy few days, so I'll try to catch the very few readers I have up on what's been going on.

• Spent a few short days in Denton, hanging out with Kaylen, and packing up what was left of all my stuff.
• Saturday evening my parents came up and we packed/cleaned/played rock band at my apartment.
• Sunday morning, bright and early, we pick up and then proceeded to pack a very small UHaul with more stuff than anyone thought imaginably possible thanks to the expert packing skills my dad and I possess.
• We headed down to Goldthwaite on Sunday night and spent Monday resting up for the unpacking of that tightly packed UHaul on Tuesday.
• Tuesday morning around 7, we woke up, got breakfast, and headed off to start the process of finalizing my move to Brownwood.
• Tuesday after we were unpacked and a few members of the party went back home, my mom and I stayed to unpack, arrange, and set-up all of my stuff.
• After a few meals, a few trips to walmart and goodwill, Mom left and I went to bed after about a 17 hour day of moving.
• Today I had lunch with my MawMaw and then headed to Goldthwaite to get ready for a day of painting tomorrow at Dad's office.
• I'm spending the 4th with Kaylen/her family/most of my family and a few friends along the way. The next week will be spent on the lake as a last hoorah before I must find a job and end my summer a few weeks before planned. Hopefully this lake week will result in some good fish stories for later blogging.

Anyways, just a quick update for all the fans of the blog. Kaylen you can go back to missing me and selling your MaryKay stuff, check her out. Nic go ahead and make another Howard Payne/Brownwood joke and spend the next few moments laughing at my expense. Have a good one!